Hallowed Be Thy Gun
by Gary Beck
I
The war went on for eight more years. 
I managed to come home alive, 
but didn't laugh much after that. 
I couldn't ignore the call to arms
when my neighbors grabbed their muskets
and rushed to the village green.
I went to the mantelpiece,
took down Pa's musket,
gathering dust
since Washington's men 
managed to stagger home 
after being shot to pieces 
by the French and Indians, 
when blundering Braddock 
led them into an ambush 
and almost got them massacred. 
Pa was one of the few 
who hadn't been wounded. 
He didn't laugh much after that. 
Once we gathered on the green 
we bragged we'd whip the redcoats, 
until we spotted their column, 
bayonets gleaming in the sun, 
and my knees turned to water. 
I figured we'd talk first, 
but the boys opened fire 
and a few of the redcoats fell. 
My body was trembling so much 
I fired without taking aim. 
Then they fired a volley 
and a lot of the boys went down. 
We were getting ready to run 
when the Concord boys showed up 
and shot at the lobsterbacks 
from behind trees and walls. 
A redcoat captain remembered 
the treacherous Indians 
never faced the British square 
and ordered his troops to retreat. 
We whooped and hollered like redskins, 
and chased the hated invaders 
halfway back to Boston town, 
but stopped when our powder ran out. 
Then we whooped and hollered again, 
until we found out who was dead 
and it was no longer a game. 
The war went on for eight more years. 
I managed to come home alive, 
but didn't laugh much after that. 
II
A lot more boys died of disease 
than ever died in battle
Then the cry went out in the land: 
'The redcoats are coming again,' 
I went to the mantelpiece 
and took down daddy's musket. 
He tried to tell me I shouldn’t go, 
but I wouldn't listen to advice, 
desperate to escape the farm 
and it's backbreaking routine. 
I eagerly went off to war 
with the rest of the local boys 
and we boasted how we'd whomp 
the redcoats, like our daddys did, 
but we just marched and retreated. 
A lot more boys died of disease 
than ever died in battle, 
but somehow I survived 
and gladly returned to the farm. 
III
My young son wanted me to go 
and didn't understand when I said: 
"I wasn't going to fight for thieves." 
Tired of fighting the rocky ground 
for crops that barely paid the tax, 
me, my wife, and one year old son 
set out for Texas and free land. 
When I said goodbye to dad 
he gave me granddad's musket 
and said: "I hope you won't need it." 
No one warned us that the Mexes 
thought we were invaders, 
but the fight started far away 
so I didn't have to join up. 
My young son wanted me to go 
and didn't understand when I said: 
"I wasn't going to fight for thieves." 
He never forgave me for that, 
but I had seen enough of war. 
We went to war with Mexico 
and my son kissed his son goodbye 
and enlisted in the army. 
His squadmates boasted they'd be home 
after they whipped the Mexicans. 
They marched and marched, back and forth, 
with hundreds dying of disease 
before they met the enemy. 
A lot of youngsters got killed 
in battle after battle, 
cause the Mexicans could fight. 
But America won the war, 
so the troops came home in triumph 
and my son brought home our musket. 
I could tell from his weary face 
he had seen the horrors of war. 
IV
My son came home a skeleton. 
I knew what he meant when he said: 
"Daddy. I saw the elephant."
Many Texans were divided 
if we should be slave or free 
and when Texas seceded 
most of us supported the South. 
Then my young son told me: 
"Daddy. I'm going to join up." 
"You're only fifteen years old." 
"I'll be sixteen in a few months 
and the Cause needs every man." 
"It's not our Cause. We don't own slaves." 
But no matter what I said 
he had made up his mind to go. 
I couldn't keep him a prisoner 
and he was much too big to spank, 
so he went to the mantelpiece 
and took down great granddad's musket. 
I didn't see him for four long years. 
At first the South won victories, 
but the men still fought face to face, 
just like the earlier wars 
without learning to preserve lives, 
and mowed each other down like grain 
in the bloodiest of harvests. 
When I read about the battles 
with the dead in tens of thousands, 
I thought of my Mexican war, 
when the dead numbered in hundreds. 
Then the tide turned against the South 
and they were forced to surrender. 
My son came home a skeleton. 
I knew what he meant when he said: 
"Daddy. I saw the elephant." 
V
We couldn't invade Canada, 
we already beat Mexico,
so we looked at the wider world 
and selected the decaying Spain
My tormented son didn't forget 
the sufferings of his long war, 
but we survived Reconstruction 
and my son finally married. 
Soon after my grandson was born 
and this healed some old wounds. 
America became modern, 
we had electricity, 
other new inventions 
the wild west had been settled, 
so what could restless people do? 
We couldn't invade Canada, 
we already beat Mexico, 
so we looked at the wider world 
and selected the decaying Spain, 
an empire ripe for the plucking. 
Spain 's treasure fleets once sailed the seas 
and brought home fabulous riches 
that let her exercise control 
of a large part of the world, 
until she lost preeminence 
to the growing might of Britain. 
Then the empire began to fray 
and lost many possessions, 
Louisiana, Florida, 
eviction from Mexico . 
Then just before daddy died 
he told my son: "Don't go to war." 
But as soon as war was declared 
my son went to the mantelpiece, 
took down the family musket 
and eagerly rushed off to war. 
They laughed when I arrived 
to enlist at the recruiters. 
"What's that piece of junk you got there?" 
a tough sergeant asked with disdain. 
"This is the modern army, kid." 
My fellow recruits laughed at me, 
'til we took the enlistment oath, 
then they began to strut and brag 
how they'd eat the Spanish alive. 
The tough sergeant looked at them 
with a sneer on his weathered face. 
"You got no idea what's coming, 
or you wouldn't behave like dumb kids. 
Now shut your mouths and form a line." 
He marched us to the train station 
and we were on our way to war. 
First we went to training camp 
where many died of disease, 
others died of exhaustion. 
Those who survived Florida swamps 
got sick on the boat to Cuba, 
where more died of typhoid fever 
then were killed in all the battles. 
Luckily, Spanish generals 
were worse than our generals, 
so we managed to win the war. 
One man emerged a hero, 
and Teddy Roosevelt rode his fame 
into the vice-presidency. 
While we suffered in obscurity, 
trying to regain our lost lives, 
Teddy moved into the White House. 
Soldiers in our family 
always carried the musket 
they used for generations, 
but now was obsolete. 
It was too important 
to be casually discarded, 
since so many of our men 
had hallowed it in battle. 
So it sat on the mantelpiece 
and we didn't let it gather dust. 
Instead we formed a tradition, 
whenever we left the house 
for anything important 
we touched the musket for luck. 
It may have seemed superstitious, 
but it brought our men home alive. 
VI
It rained and rained by day and night 
and we stood or slept in water, 
until our clothes began to rot 
and we caught awful diseases. 
It took a while for Dad and me 
to understand technology. 
Machine guns made the cost of war, 
too bloody to fight anymore. 
I married and had children, 
just like my forebears did, 
then suddenly one hot summer 
Europe erupted into war. 
Millions of men marched to battle 
and were slaughtered by the thousands, 
until they cowered in the earth, 
from merciless machine guns 
that drank deep of soldier's blood, 
while devastating cannons 
blew young flesh into pieces, 
as the carnage went on and on. 
Then America went to war 
and my son wanted to join up. 
"You're only seventeen," I said. 
"So were you and granddad 
when you enlisted for your wars." 
No matter what I said or did 
I could not change his stubborn mind 
and off he went to training camp 
that at least had sanitation, 
so most deaths were from accidents, 
rather than horrid diseases. 
Then tens of thousands sailed to France, 
most of them seasick, or scared, 
while others boasted how they'd show 
the frogs and limeys how to fight, 
and wouldn't hide in trenches for years. 
We landed in Le Havre and marched 
into town in orderly ranks, 
so the frogs could see the doughboys, 
Springfield rifles on our shoulders, 
made by the modern company 
that once made the muskets by hand 
that my ancestors had carried 
when they went to war long ago. 
The French heaved sighs of relief 
that the Yanks were finally here, 
though they also resented us 
for taking so long to arrive, 
while their sons were killed and wounded 
like cattle in a slaughter house, 
going mindlessly to their deaths 
for a few muddy yards of ground. 
We finally got near the front 
and those who weren't scared before 
weren't boasting anymore. 
We went to a quiet sector 
next to the veteran French troops 
to allow us time to adapt 
to conditions in the trenches. 
It rained and rained by day and night 
and we stood or slept in water, 
until our clothes began to rot 
and we caught awful diseases. 
The French poilus detested us 
and never answered when we asked: 
"What is it really like up there?" 
We waited, then waited some more, 
as winter brought influenza. 
Those of us still alive in spring 
finally went into action 
and we all thought it was better 
to get killed fighting the Germans, 
than rot away in the trenches. 
The whistles sounded the attack 
and off we went over the top, 
and saw our buddies blown apart 
by the big guns that deafened us, 
while blood and guts splattered us 
from the enormous explosions 
that destroyed many of our men. 
We took our objective that day 
at the cost of hundreds of lives 
for a small piece of muddy ground 
that wasn't worth a single death. 
Those lucky enough to survive 
the ignorance of generals 
who sent wave after wave of men 
across the barren land of doom 
where chattering machine guns played 
the song of death upon our flesh 
that later would enrich the soil. 
When the guns at last were silent, 
we went back to the rear for rest 
without much time to parlez-vous, 
or meet the vision of our dreams, 
Mademoiselle from Armentieres . 
Some of us drank vin ordinaire, 
not enough to forget the war, 
then we were sent back to the front 
and the battles went on and on. 
Sometimes my buddies and I talked 
when the barrages fell silent 
about the weary frogs and limeys, 
because we just couldn't understand 
how they survived in the trenches 
before we finally arrived, 
bringing young, fresh cannon fodder 
to feed the consuming machines 
that dined on a diet of flesh 
that was butchered from far away. 
We never dared to ask ourselves 
how long we thought we could endure, 
so we fixed bayonets and charged, 
until there were no more battles. 
Then they shipped us home for parades, 
but none of us felt like heroes. 
A lot of American boys 
were unprepared for modern war 
and some reacted with shell shock. 
There wasn't much understanding 
that some youngsters were unsuited 
for the horrors of the trenches, 
the butchery of battlefields, 
a scale of death not seen before. 
So they returned home woeful wrecks, 
sometimes pitied, mostly despised, 
having failed to do their duty 
in the eyes of their countrymen. 
But most of them had done their best, 
had endured dreadful conditions, 
the terrors of modern warfare 
and had crumbled under the strain. 
VII
Throughout our bloody history 
we always forgot the soldiers 
as soon as the war was over. 
Our leaders promised: "Never again", 
then forgot the ravaged men 
and didn't let their fate remind them 
to find alternatives to war. 
I managed to rebuild my life 
with the loving help of my dad, 
then I finally got married 
and my wife gave birth to a son. 
That day I took a solemn vow: 
"My son will never go to war." 
My dad shrugged when I told him, 
he knew the lure war had for youth. 
We went about our daily lives 
while the country grew and prospered, 
until the stock market collapsed, 
destroying the hopes of many. 
Some veterans of the Great War 
were forced to go to the breadlines. 
Then they remembered promises 
made soon after peace was declared 
to give the doughboys bonuses 
to reward them for their service. 
At first they didn't know who to ask, 
so they went to their congressmen, 
but nothing ever came of it. 
The hungry men grew hungrier 
and decided among themselves 
to march on Washington, D.C. 
and get what they're entitled to. 
The government didn't welcome them. 
Instead General MacArthur 
led troops and tanks to disperse them. 
Throughout our bloody history 
we always forgot the soldiers 
as soon as the war was over. 
While America recovered 
from the terrible Depression, 
Italy, Germany, Japan, 
prepared their countries for war 
and men began to march again. 
Flames of war spread across the globe, 
with armies numbered in millions, 
and the deaths numbered in millions, 
as battles raged across Europe 
and battles raged across Asia 
and battles raged in Africa 
and the machinery of war 
was in motion throughout the world. 
VIII
That didn't stop them from enjoying 
our cigarettes, chocolate, nylons, 
while we enjoyed their young bodies. 
On December 8, 1941, 
I told dad I was enlisting. 
"I hoped you would go to college, 
but we've always done our duty, 
so I knew you would join up. 
A legend in our family 
relates that all the fathers 
tried to prevent their eager sons 
from going off to fight a war, 
but when the Japs bombed Pearl Harbor 
it wasn't like earlier wars. 
This one shocked us awake. 
We were completely unprepared 
when the enemy attacked us 
and we need time to get ready. 
It'll go on for many years." 
I didn't know how to answer him, 
so I gave him a hug goodbye, 
took the next bus to Dallas 
to sign up at the recruiters. 
The line was long when I got there, 
but pretty soon I found myself 
face to face with a tough Sergeant. 
"You hardly look old enough, kid." 
"I'm here to serve my country, sir." 
I guess I answered the right way. 
He said: "Strip to your underwear. 
Get in line for a physical." 
So I hurried, then I waited, 
until an impatient doctor 
roughly poked and prodded me, 
then pronounced me fit for service. 
We hurried to the train station, 
where we waited and waited, 
until they hurried us aboard, 
then we waited and waited, 
'til the train sped to training camp, 
where they taught us how to soldier. 
When we finished basic training 
they gave us thirty days furlough 
and I went home feeling my oats. 
Dad was surprised to see me. 
"This is a new kind of army, 
that sends its soldiers home to rest 
before they've gone to war." 
"It's going to be a long war. 
I'll be gone for a long while, dad. 
It's our chance for a last goodbye." 
I hurried to join my unit, 
then we waited and waited, 
until they shipped us out to sea 
on a filthy, old rust-bucket 
that rolled so much we got seasick. 
And on we sailed, day after day, 
like the 'Ancient Mariner' 
I read about in high school. 
No one knew where we were going 
and rumors spread across the ship. 
Some said Italy. Some said France. 
But wherever we were going 
we knew we could defeat the foe. 
The rumor spread that we sailed past 
an island fortress, Gibraltar, 
so we knew we wouldn't land in France. 
Late one night warships passed us 
and we woke up in the morning 
to the sound of naval gunfire, 
the deafening explosions 
made most of us aware 
it wasn't a game anymore. 
Yet some of the boys still boasted 
they would whip the enemy. 
The experienced Sergeants sneered, 
because they knew what was coming 
that the boys who made it ashore 
would grow up suddenly. 
Then rumor spread across the ship 
we'd hit the beach in Africa 
and some of the boys boasted 
they could beat any Africans. 
We landed safely, unopposed, 
and everyone grew confident 
that the enemy was afraid. 
The experienced Sergeants sneered, 
because they heard it all before, 
yet secretly most of us thought 
we already won the war. 
It didn't take long for us to learn 
foolishness had made us think 
it was over before we fought. 
Then one morning we grew up fast 
when the Germans and Italians 
launched a terrifying attack, 
sending us fleeing in retreat 
back to where we started from, 
with many killed, wounded, missing. 
After we won in Africa 
they gave us a needed rest. 
Then we invaded Italy. 
Those of us who hadn't learned 
that talk is cheap and lives are dear 
were reminded by German guns. 
When we conquered Italy 
they gave us a needed rest, 
which most of us spent on Vino, 
or seducing Signorinas. 
Then they shipped us off to England 
on a filthy, old rust-bucket 
that rolled so much we got seasick 
and we were almost torpedoed, 
but survived all the attacks 
and safely reached good old England. 
Most of the British men were gone, 
serving somewhere else in the world 
in their fight to retain empire, 
and the British girls welcomed us, 
yet resented that we were there. 
That didn't stop them from enjoying 
our cigarettes, chocolate, nylons, 
while we enjoyed their young bodies. 
But soon invasion day grew near. 
We kissed the English girls goodbye 
for colder beds in rusty ships 
and crossed the English Channel. 
Battleships bombarded the shore, 
hundreds of planes bombed and strafed, 
they said they wiped out resistance, 
but we heard that claim before. 
We fought our way across France, 
and invaded Germany, 
'til Germans lost their will to fight. 
When the Russians reached Berlin 
my war was finally over. 
The Pacific war went on, 
until they dropped atomic bombs 
that ended the second World War. 
Then we occupied Germany, 
divided it into sectors 
for the Brits, French, Yanks and Russkies, 
all of us hated by Germans, 
Russians most hated of all. 
Then we returned home to parades, 
quickly took off our uniforms 
and tried to resume peacetime life. 
IX
In the first American war 
(although we didn't call it a war.
We coined a term: police action.) 
that didn't result in victory 
Like many other ex G.I.'s 
I needed education 
to build a better way of life, 
since I just got married 
and we were expecting a child. 
I went to a Dallas college 
where I studied hard for three years 
and became an accountant. 
I went to work in suit and tie 
for a prestigious company 
and started to make good money. 
We bought a house in the suburbs 
and each morning I commuted. 
On weekends we went to the ranch 
to help dad, who was getting old, 
but still refused to sell the place. 
We had the American dream, 
while young enough to enjoy it. 
Like many citizens, 
the Cold War didn't affect us much, 
except for occasional fears 
there might be nuclear war. 
But the Cold War erupted 
in divided Korea, 
when the North invaded the South. 
Once again my country called me, 
but this time I didn't want to go, 
yet didn't seem to have much choice. 
I kissed my wife and son goodbye, 
put on a new uniform, 
since now I was an officer. 
We sailed on an old rust bucket 
and most of the kids were seasick, 
then we arrived in Japan. 
Our once terrible enemy 
was now an occupied country, 
where G.I.'s had become fat 
from easy garrison duty. 
But our army was disordered 
from fierce North Korean assaults, 
so they loaded the rust-buckets 
with inexperienced, young troops 
and rushed us to South Korea, 
where they hoped we'd stop the retreat. 
The enemy attacks went on 
and our boys panicked in battle. 
Many dropped their weapons and ran, 
unable to overcome fear. 
We almost withdrew from Korea, 
but held a defensive line. 
For three bitter, bloody years 
we fought up and down Korea. 
First we fought the North Koreans 
and finally defeated them. 
Then the Chinese intervened, 
drove us back with heavy losses, 
until once again the tide turned 
and we pushed them back in defeat. 
Yet the Chinese and their ally 
wouldn't admit they were beaten, 
so the fighting went on, went on, 
as armies moved back and forth, 
over and over the same ground 
that devoured many brave men, 
until both armies returned 
to where they started from. 
In the first American war 
(although we didn't call it a war. 
We coined a term: police action.) 
that didn't result in victory 
we suffered many casualties 
and most of them had no idea 
what they had been fighting for. 
Then we came home without parades, 
because we neither won nor lost 
and people looked at us strangely, 
as if we were the ones to blame 
for not winning a foreign war. 
So we took off our uniforms, 
returned to civilian life, 
but now we were apprehensive, 
since we didn't defeat Asians.
X
They asked me why police with dogs 
attacked peaceful demonstrators 
who only wanted equal rights.
The winds of change began to blow 
across a great divided land 
between the white majority 
and seekers of equality. 
The resistance to civil rights 
for the American negro, 
a brutal, violent struggle 
that finally opened some doors 
which denied opportunity, 
had been carried out by the best, 
although maybe not the brightest 
that America has produced 
with the fervor of crusaders 
who overcame personal fears, 
put their bodies in harm's way 
for the worthiest of causes. 
My sons grew up in the fifties 
watching the civil rights struggle 
on our new television set. 
They asked me why police with dogs 
attacked peaceful demonstrators 
who only wanted equal rights. 
They had seen discrimination 
in our Texas school system, 
where they cowered under desks 
for protection from atom bombs, 
the most moronic policy 
made by the densest and dumbest, 
that would vaporize everyone, 
regardless of race or color. 
It wasn't easy to explain 
we were really all the same. 
I told them I saw negro troops 
killed or wounded in two wars 
and their blood was as red as ours. 
Our neighbors never felt that way 
and expressed prejudice 
against people they considered 
an inferior race. 
When my sons refused to agree 
with prevailing attitudes 
they were attacked by some classmates, 
school proponents of bigotry, 
compelled to defend themselves 
when officials didn't intervene. 
This went on for almost a year, 
until tired of persecution 
we moved back to my daddy's ranch. 
XI
We supported the South 
that claimed to be democratic, 
with the Buddhists and Catholics 
opposed to the communist North
Then Asia again intruded 
in what had been our peaceful lives, 
when our troops went as advisors 
to another divided land, 
North and South Vietnam, victims 
of Cold War geometry, 
that took half of a country 
rather than let the other side 
rule the entire land. 
We supported the South 
that claimed to be democratic, 
with the Buddhists and Catholics 
opposed to the communist North, 
along with various war lords, 
rival sects, drug gangs, criminals, 
a land to confuse anyone. 
Once again our troops were sent 
to fight another foreign war, 
but except for a mere handful 
of Washington D.C. schemers, 
no one had the faintest idea 
of why they were really sent there. 
So escalation began, 
the number of troops increased, 
followed by new confrontations, 
greatly expanding our presence 
'til we found a provocation 
that let us to send in the Marines. 
The war was growing in Vietnam, 
but resistance was emerging 
from anti-war activists, 
who refused to support the war. 
Suddenly for the first time 
in American history 
an entire generation, 
skeptical college students, 
refused to enlist for service, 
choosing, 'turn on, tune in, dropout', 
a preferred alternative 
to a war they didn't understand. 
The powers-that-be used the draft 
to fill the army's hollow ranks 
with the nation's poorest, 
trading the slum for the jungle, 
as offspring of the privileged 
remained in school with exemptions, 
where they were sheltered from danger, 
while soldiers got wounded, or killed. 
Our bitterly divided land 
never saw anti-war fervor 
affect so many young people, 
setting fathers against sons, 
employers against workers. 
When my sons got draft notices 
it almost split our family. 
Daniel, the eldest at nineteen, 
packed his bag and prepared to leave. 
Billy, the baby at eighteen, 
decided that he would not go. 
He burned his draft card, packed a bag, 
pleaded with us to understand, 
then left to live in Canada. 
It was hard for me to endure 
loss of my sons to war and peace. 
The war escalation went on 
as more and more boys were drafted 
from ghettos and small towns, 
and after brief training 
were rushed off to distant jungles 
of an alien, Asian land 
completely unprepared to meet 
a fanatical enemy, 
willing to pay any price 
to drive out hated invaders 
flaunting Western arrogance 
that attempted to determine 
the destiny of a people, 
who wouldn't accept domination 
by imperialist powers 
playing dominos in Vietnam. 
The media grew so bold 
they defied the president 
and military policy. 
When our troops destroyed a village 
because they wanted to save it, 
and the surprise attack at Tet 
caught our leaders with their pants down, 
the media refused to see 
light at the end of the tunnel, 
then broadcast loss of confidence 
in the management of the war. 
Suddenly the despised hippies 
became slightly acceptable 
to people who once scorned them, 
as long as they chose to make love 
as an alternative to war. 
Our strategy of attrition, 
made by ignorant generals 
who didn't know the nature of war 
had undergone revolution, 
as all our vaunted firepower 
couldn't defeat a guerilla force 
willing to sacrifice their lives 
to win in the people's struggle. 
So America 's will crumbled 
as anti-war activists 
disrupted college campuses 
in efforts to end the war, 
because of fierce resistance 
from unattrited North Vietnam, 
who lost almost all the battles, 
but refused to accept defeat. 
A weary President gave in 
and refused to seek a new term. 
The tricky new President, 
elected for a secret plan 
to end the most divisive war 
in our violent history, 
deluded us with hopes of peace, 
although the war went on, went on. 
The words were often repeated: 
'Peace is just around the corner', 
but the fighting went on, went on 
as casualties grew and grew 
people began to blame 
troops who were fighting the war, 
instead of the bad architects 
who actually started it. 
At last we admitted defeat, 
ended our part in the war, 
abandoned South Vietnam 
to relentless communists. 
Our returning troops were despised, 
spat on, called baby-killers. 
There were no parades of welcome. 
They took off their uniforms, 
sought civilian life again, 
but nightmares of the jungle 
twisted their sleep into torment, 
and endless days of rejection 
ended hopes of normalcy. 
My son came home a broken man, 
crushed by the horrors he saw, 
so different from what I had seen. 
XII
The loss of capital and jobs 
turned the land into the rust belt.
We sullenly licked our wounds 
from the communist victory 
and the army sulked in its tents. 
The Generals looked for scapegoats 
to blame for shameful defeat, 
while refusing to blame themselves 
for leading the best trained, equipped 
fighting force in our history 
against a poor peasant army 
that outsmarted our Generals, 
who forgot West Point lessons 
about accountability 
for devising a strategy 
that proved unsatisfactory, 
instead blaming politicians, 
rather than accept their failure. 
Our army that fought in Vietnam 
was different than in other wars, 
mostly young, ignorant draftees 
who hadn't the faintest idea 
why they were fighting in Vietnam. 
They were strangers to discipline, 
resenting military life, 
the need to obey orders. 
They resisted authority 
smoking pot, using drugs 
to escape extremes of war, 
tedium almost all the time, 
marked by dull, repetitive chores, 
contrasted with brief terror 
of clashes with the enemy 
that left them dazed and exhausted. 
So unlike earlier soldiers 
who accepted the chain of command, 
many disgruntled young draftees 
forced to serve a tour of duty, 
struck back at their superiors 
by tossing grenades in their tents 
and repaying them by "fragging" 
the Sergeants and Lieutenants, 
the men who gave them orders 
to carry out dirty details, 
like cleaning officer's latrines, 
or who sent them out to be killed. 
Most trainees often fantasized 
about killing their drill Sergeants, 
but "fragging" was reality 
and one cause that ended the draft. 
Now our nation was traumatized 
by disastrous loss of the war 
and the anti-war sentiment 
pervaded our society, 
as doubt shaped foreign policy. 
We didn't want to be involved 
in complicated world affairs 
that distracted our citizens. 
Our energies turned domestic 
just as our industries and jobs 
began to be outsourced abroad 
while political upheavals 
confused many people at home 
struggling to earn a living. 
The loss of capital and jobs 
turned the land into the rust belt. 
My disturbed son worked on the ranch 
and gradually got better 
from the reassuring routine 
necessary for daily life 
and decided to get married. 
After a while they had a son 
and my son swore a solemn oath: 
'My son will never go to war'. 
I only hoped that he was right. 
Then finally an amnesty 
was proclaimed for draft dodgers 
who ran away to Canada 
instead of going to Vietnam. 
My younger son returned to us 
with a wife and new-born son 
and for a while life seemed normal.
XIII
But the Mujahadeen fighters, 
with the help of the C.I.A., 
retreated into the mountains
.. … …. … …. ………..
until they used Stinger missiles 
to beat the soviet army. 
The world changed after Vietnam. 
Resentful Muslims feared the West 
of decadent, licentious ways, 
would undermine the one true faith 
with the gift of democracy. 
Religious fervor and unrest 
began to grow in Muslim lands. 
Islam saw the wounded giant 
uncertain how to meet the threats 
from once cooperative lands 
that produced the world's oil supply, 
who now hinted at cutting off 
the vital industrial juice 
that nourished our economy, 
which was completely dependent 
on oil for our energy needs. 
The grasping Soviet empire, 
our enemy in the Cold War, 
intervened in Afghanistan, 
installed a puppet president 
and tried to subjugate the land. 
But the 
Mujahadeen fighters, 
with the help of the C.I.A., 
retreated into the mountains 
where they steadfastly resisted 
superior technology, 
soviet helicopters 
that drove fighters into caves 
because primitive rifles 
couldn't shoot down modern monsters, 
until they used Stinger missiles 
to beat the soviet army. 
The soviet empire had a great fall 
and formerly enslaved nations 
threw off hated hegemony, 
as confused soviet troops 
withdrew behind their own borders, 
while struggling to understand 
how so much could be lost so fast. 
America bestrode the globe 
a powerful colossus 
that no longer had a rival 
exerting some limitation 
on its leadership of the world. 
Now the target of hate became 
the American oppressors, 
who once had shared the enmity 
with the feared Soviet Union. 
XIV
Some said: "the volatile Mid-East 
needed a balance of power 
to maintain regional peace." 
Turmoil arose in the Mid-East, 
and the European Union 
was reluctant to intervene. 
China was flexing its muscles 
for the Pacific Rim nations, 
who feared for future safety 
if America's umbrella 
of nuclear deterrent 
was arbitrarily withdrawn. 
Nuclear proliferation 
became one of the widespread fears 
that occupied America, 
the European Union, 
completely dependent on oil, 
mostly produced in the Mid-East, 
where some sought nuclear weapons. 
Saddam Hussein was accused 
of seeking acquisition 
of weapons of mass destruction. 
America launched a crusade 
approved by the U.N., 
most member nations 
to prevent the dangerous threat 
from becoming reality. 
I gave thanks my sons were too young 
to rush to the horrors of war. 
Many Americans worried 
about their sons and daughters 
(I gave thanks I didn't have daughters) 
being fed to the inferno 
of weapons of mass destruction, 
waiting to consume their children. 
Then the coalition unleashed 
an overwhelming air attack 
with dazzling precision bombing, 
followed by a stunning blitzkrieg 
that quickly crushed resistance 
from Saddam's demoralized troops. 
But America triumphant 
and its victorious allies 
surrounding Saddam's capitol, 
stopped the war outside of Baghdad 
and quickly negotiated peace, 
still leaving Saddam in power 
in what we called a rogue nation 
that threatened world stability, 
causing some of us to wonder 
why we bothered to go to war. 
Some citizens blamed it on oil. 
Others claimed they believed the threat 
of weapons of mass destruction. 
Some said: "the volatile Mid-East 
needed a balance of power 
to maintain regional peace." 
When the usual suspects yelled: 
"Capitalist conspiracy," 
they didn't get much credence, 
because they couldn't articulate 
exactly who was conspiring. 
But there were many citizens 
who doubted their own government, 
no longer blindly accepting 
the statements of officials 
elected with oligarch's funds. 
American hegemony 
reached across the entire globe, 
our troops in dozens of countries, 
our fleets dominating the seas, 
our air force ruling the skies. 
This made few of our friends happy 
and most of our enemies mad, 
for a nationalistic world 
resents any überpower 
infringing on its sovereignty, 
however benevolently. 
Then suddenly we stood alone, 
except for the dependent Brits 
who already lost their empire 
and now linked their future with ours 
in a world menaced with chaos. 
Each day new threats appeared, 
that undermined stability 
of fragile globalization. 
Nukes peddled by North Korea 
to America 's enemies; 
Al Qaeda training terrorists 
for deadly suicide missions; 
Indian and Pakistani 
confrontations on their borders; 
Russian yearnings of nostalgia 
for their lost former USSR, 
some dreaming of democracy, 
others trapped in autocracy; 
China 's harsh strangling of Tibet; 
unrest in South America; 
events breeding mass confusion. 
At home many thought things were good. 
We wallowed in prosperity, 
at least for so many of us 
that we neglected to notice 
when so much of our industry 
was either moved to other lands, 
or left to rust away at home, 
resulting in the loss of jobs, 
well-paid jobs, never to return. 
For American workers made 
a crucial laborer's mistake; 
they expected a fair day's pay 
in return for a fair day's work. 
Scrooge's fictional conversion 
to a generous employer 
is just a capitalist myth. 
The owners of America 
found it easier to control 
underpaid service workers, 
who barely managed week to week 
to pay for necessities 
required by their families, 
rather than highly skilled labor 
certain of their basic value, 
willing to challenge the bosses 
for what they were entitled to. 
But profit rules the oligarchs, 
not concern for men and women 
who contribute to the coffers, 
yet demand too much of a share 
to suit insatiable owners, 
who bought cheaper workers abroad. 
Without an industrial base 
the economy still flourished, 
mostly from finance and housing, 
and no one spoke of the dangers 
of a service economy 
with a vast, low-paid underclass 
well trained by TV to desire 
the same luxury goods 
they could no longer afford. 
The price of oil went up and up 
that fueled gas-guzzling cars 
in the foolish Detroit gamble 
to compete with foreign makers 
of cars that captured the market. 
The once proud American car 
lay rusting on lawns and backyards. 
Then a mad fever swept the land 
to build new condominiums 
at a time when job outsourcing 
cut consumer's ability 
to finance expensive housing. 
While the real estate bubble 
continued its wild inflation 
many families were tempted, 
despite insufficient income, 
to take out loans from predators 
for mortgages they couldn't afford 
if the economy crumbled. 
The nation urged education 
as the path to prosperity, 
yet many desirable jobs 
had already traveled abroad. 
XV
So war was declared on terror, 
but where was the land of terror?
9/11 smashed illusions 
of safety and serenity 
in a land grown too complacent 
about the dangers of the world. 
America watched in horror 
as innocents jumped from buildings, 
rather than be consumed by fire, 
as the World Trade Center perished, 
devouring police and firemen 
who rushed in to do their duty, 
despite risk to life and limb 
and died with hundreds of workers, 
condemned without a trial 
by fanatical terrorists 
claiming to be killing for God, 
while the Arab street danced for joy. 
So war was declared on terror, 
but where was the land of terror? 
Who would be punished for the crime 
that struck our financial heart? 
Our leaders searched for culprits, 
but just found individuals, 
not a country they could target. 
Someone had to give us payback 
and since we couldn't find Osama 
we decided to choose Saddam. 
We unleashed the best blitzkrieg 
the war-torn world had ever seen 
and even showed it on TV, 
as the best trained, best equipped 
modern American army 
displayed its high technology. 
Our forces overran Iraq 
faster than a speeding bullet, 
or so it seemed to friends and foes, 
hoping for our failure of arms. 
But the wounded giant prevailed 
and soon raised the flag of conquest 
above the walls of Baghdad. 
The cheerleaders in Washington 
basked in the glow of victory, 
but didn't know what to do next. 
The guns were barely silent 
when chaos swept across Iraq. 
We had removed authority, 
disbanded their military, 
so no one was left in control 
who could reestablish order. 
Shiites were avenging themselves 
on Sunnis who had oppressed them. 
Criminal gangs were running wild 
and the police could not suppress them. 
Al Qaeda stirred up the people 
to resent hated infidels. 
Violence was everywhere. 
The infrastructure of the land 
rapidly ceased to function. 
Water and electricity 
only flowed erratically. 
The continuation of life 
became a daily struggle. 
Everyone blamed America 
who conquered Iraq easily, 
but couldn't govern what they conquered. 
The menace of democracy 
undermined stability 
of primitive mentalities 
ruled by calculating leaders 
corrupt as any infidels 
against whom they cried for 
jihad, 
especially Americans, 
fearing decadent Western ways 
they claimed would corrupt the faithful. 
And some opposed us openly, 
while others acted secretly 
to insure we wouldn't succeed 
in creating a new Iraq 
with a unity government 
that would treat all people fairly, 
ruling democratically. 
But what about North Korea 
who tested a nuclear bomb? 
And what about evil Iran 
exporting religious terror? 
Were they too strong to be attacked? 
What determined our policies 
in the narrowed internet world? 
Was it decided by the rich 
who ruled our land behind the scenes 
and always put profits first, 
purchasing our legislators 
to ensure no interference 
in their quest for acquisition 
at the expense of our people, 
most of whom the working poor, 
hovering near destitution? 
XVI
The only practical places 
for a military assault 
were Africa and the Mid-East.
The wealthy needed to divert 
the public's growing suspicion 
that all was not well in our land. 
Iraq was already engaged, 
a new target was needed 
to absorb public attention, 
so our rulers studied the map 
of the confusing world, 
as warm with many enemies 
ready for retaliation 
in the event of our attack. 
The only practical places 
for a military assault 
were Africa and the Mid-East. 
We were leery of Somalia, 
and selected Afghanistan. 
The land was almost primitive, 
impoverished by the soviets 
in years of violent warfare. 
Al Qaeda had been driven out 
and lurked in tribal areas 
on the border of Pakistan, 
while no one feared the Taliban's 
religious extremists. 
Once again our volunteers 
were sent to fight another foe, 
and once again, as usual, 
without proper preparation 
for hostile conditions, 
without language training 
to meet an alien people. 
Our troops were hated invaders. 
Our generals were still fighting 
the disastrous war in Vietnam, 
where despite our firepower, 
our vaunted technology, 
we couldn't defeat guerilla foes. 
Now in this landlocked country 
our navy had no role to play, 
no beaches to assault, 
nor decisive air-sea battles. 
Our air force did ground support 
without the possibility 
of thrilling air-to-air combat, 
blissful strategic bombing. 
So once again foot soldiers 
faced the dirty job alone 
in an unforgiving country. 
Warfare is and has always been 
influenced by economics, 
paid for with the blood of the young 
for domestic prosperity 
and imperial expansion. 
In a land without industry 
to sustain the population 
and pay for the cost of war, 
our nation has a growing debt 
without means to repay it. 
The financial sector's collapse, 
the burst housing bubble 
caused the rich minor losses, 
the middle-class was ravaged, 
the poor devastated, 
making us fear the future.
Author’s Bio: Gary Beck has spent most of his adult life as a theater director and worked as an art dealer when he couldn't earn a living in the theater. He has also been a tennis pro, a ditch digger and a salvage diver. He has published chapbooks 
Remembrance (Origami Condom Press), 
The Conquest of Somalia (Cervena Barva Press), 
The Dance of Hate (Calliope Nerve Media), 
Material Questions (Silkworms Ink), 
Dispossessed (Medulla Press) and 
Mutilated Girls (Heavy Hands Ink). His collection of his poems 
Days of Destruction (Skive Press) and 
Expectations (Rogue Scholars Press). His original plays and translations of Moliere, Aristophanes and Sophocles have been produced Off Broadway and toured colleges and outdoor performance venues. His poetry and fiction has appeared in hundreds of literary magazines. He currently lives in New York City. 
The Remission of Order explores the search for stability in this confusing life, in which so many of us want security, but fail in our efforts to achieve a satisfactory existence.